I learned to stop getting my hopes up a long time ago. I think that’s why I lack showing emotion. Things that people would do cartwheels for— I smile and nod. Not to say I’m not grateful, but there is such a thing as ‘too good to be true’. And at any moment, any given moment, the floor under you could collapse. Then what? Cry, worry, complain? No.
See, I’ve learned to be indifferent. That’s key. You neither love nor hate. You just smile and nod. That’s not to say that you aren’t grateful or blessed or lucky, but that you know things don’t come easy. Because well, they don’t.
When people ask, “are you excited?” The answer is yes. It’s always yes, because we have one life. And that one life is full of plenty of letdowns that will leave is in a foggy abyss wondering how we let our feet leave the ground. It comes with excitement, laughter, and happiness, too.
It’s okay to fly, but keep your heart and your mind closely intertwined. Being the one you got in too far over their head, the one who cared too much, the one who was up in the clouds— that’s not me.
It’s a harsh reality. Things happen, people happen, but the only one watching out for you is you. Now, tomorrow, and forever.
The day I meet someone who alters this mindset will be a glorious one. Until then, I’m keeping my hopes and dreams in my career, because that’s just about the only thing that hasn’t let me down yet.
Never let a figure define your figure.